Weather topic changed I never felt so awkward My regrets regress and changes with expressionless faces Your eyes twitch and nostrils flare No surprise there When you slap me in my face We know our limits But we still try to push it My friends understand I had no end in sight When I left you behind I forgot to say goodbye My existence moves to my centre Some assistance is needed to help my sanity So won't you help me or have I read the room wrong Careful easy does it these dreadful circumstances Reared karma's ugly head from that box under my bed You'll get yours and I'll get my, comeuppance I'll wipe down my fingerprints Pin this on me Watson with your elementary deduction Just save me before I self destruct over your ceiling

I'm stuck between a rock and hard place High in the stratosphere I'm struggling, look at my face Now here comes the fear The birds are flying down below the air is getting thin If I could wear an astronaut suit I'd jump straight to the moon But gravity's got its claws in me and pulling me down Tell the cops it's bullying me weighing me towards the ground I'm finding it hard to let go even though I've done it before what if I fail to float and crack open my head on the floor I'm higher than I’ve ever been so I repeat to my self I'll be fine I'll be fine, I'll be fine What if fall to the floor and I'm already dead The cops were called, the cops were called But no paramedics I fell to fast and didn’t float I fell harder than most The cops were called, shovels were sent To scrape me off the pavement Oh I let go and I'm falling Oh god no this is way to fast Spread out and grow something to break my fall I looked down and saw nothing Not looking forward to landing What if fall to the floor and I'm already dead The cops were called, the cops were called But no paramedics I fell to fast and didn’t float I fell harder than most shovels were sent by waste management To scrape me off the pavement Now all that remains Were the bloodstains From my scattered brain I didn't train So My muscles were too lose To hold on to the edge of you What if fall to the floor and I'm already dead The cops were called, the cops were called But no paramedics I fell to fast and didn’t float I fell harder than most shovels were sent by waste management To scrape me off the pavement

Oh funny you don't act like you would in a movie Do you think it's true I don't have a clue anymore Running out of time I had enough time to tell you to fuck off I'd like a redo I'd like a repeat of this morning She said well, only when hell freezes over So tell me if I should even bother I'm freaking you out I'm flailing about on the floor I was saying things and touching things I shouldn't touch Speaking of taboos I wanted to but I like you So R E S P E C T respect me as an equal She said well, only when hell freezes over So tell me if I should even bother Shove a note in my pocket for me Stick a posted note on this memory Chances like this don't happen every day So I will wait for you to say She said well, looks like hell's frozen over So tell your body to move closer Simultaneous now we rise with farm animals But I needed a job I needed to find out who I was But I dig the hobo look and I think I took it a bit too far Now on top of this neglect, I recollect with a quivering jaw She said well, only when hell freezes over So tell me of I should even bother So shove a note in my pocket for me Stick a posted note on this memory Chances like this don't happen every day So I will wait for you to say She said well, looks like hell's frozen over So tell your body to move closer to mine

Judging by the hue of your skin You've just gone a crimson What going on in that cranium Did something went wrong when I was explaining You're chasing your own tail With these tall tales but the devil's in the detail This obsessing is making you pale Hunting this white whale was bound to fail You heard hoofs so for you it proves Zebras are making their move Now you're horsing around with lassos Failing about with a few loose screws You're chasing your own tail with these tall tales But the devil's, in the detail, obsessing is making you pale Hunting this white whale was bound to fail How could you ever construe such a violent view of me viewing you If I sift through all the shit you threw, then I'd be the fool for playing in your stool Throw me a bone and I'll atone Before you drag me out of my home For you have cast the first stone Looking down at me from your thrown Somersaults to doge your insults That you catapult with the force of a thunderbolt A pinch of salt could result in the halt of this assault That got my blood on the asphalt

I've been meandering In a dream Ever since I made promises in my sleep Do I prefer to perforate our plotline? Or suspend my disbelief, don't worry it's fine Now here comes the dissolution Now here comes a big disruption We're heading towards a new equilibrium There will be some growth pains but we'll get over them forming order in the chaos to found a hero within be bolder or get lost In indecision Now that our narrative is juxtaposed To when I was with you and I was left alone I suppose the mise-en-scene of you and me split into thirds with dead space in between Representations of the stereotypical Conventions of our love have been archetypical Did I let go of my own monomyth is the hero's quest the princess or is he just selfish Here comes a transformation Here comes a chance for Redemption

Attach to her hip with a clip As she nonchalantly cracks her whip You over pessimistic prick Your serotonin's bound to dip Well your not a neuroscience major So why would you go over analyse your feelings for her Fickle vacillant gent, you're a fool whos lacking sense That fond attachment to her scent won't justify the argument So your not a philosopher So why should you go over analyse your feelings for her Before taking a course Of course, you just want intercourse now we're getting to the source there's a residue of remorse Your Nothing but a Trojan whore Cause Detol won't protect this detrimental eye contact Be Careful cause she'll expect a legally binding contract Oh sir your not a registered lawyer nor a law enforcer My god you barely know you're outside of the bed You wish but your not a phycologist but you think you get the gist from the way that you two kiss I'm sure there's something you've missed This combination of fear and lust has fucked you both up enough Good luck curing your dandruff your flaking out and losing trust Best ensure you got a good head on your shoulders Before you start to over analysing what is in hers Your theories you plucked them right out from the trees She won't steal your ribs she's not eve in temping you to get on one knee Love won't come so analytically

Scratch that itch you stupid bitch You're running away from yourself Catch a stitch before you switch your anger onto everyone else You're in danger of asking for help, you're a stranger in your little hell Must you always run Away from your problems You can never solve them Running from them Fire that impulse trigger regardless of the danger Of catching that tiger by the toe who hollered out to let it go Your inner meanie reminding you no Must you always run Away from your problems You can never solve them Running from them Now it's too late to make a mistake For Pete's sake, why did you have to wait For forty breaks and flakes to suffocate and end in a stalemate Fire that impulse trigger regardless of the danger Of catching that tiger by the toe who hollered out to let it go Your inner meanie reminding you no Man that instant high oh my it really made the time fly Now your rung out in a twist you've been hung up to dry Thirsty from the loss of will to try Now you run from fun Cause fun's the route of the problem Locked you in a prison Of escapism Now it's too late to make a mistake For Pete's sake, why did you have to wait For forty breaks and flakes to suffocate and end in a stalemate Sitting still, so still Ideal idol ill

Lazy ways, crazy days swept through the wall of haze my minds ablaze As I contemplate what's on my plate, for fuck sake I just ate, please refrigerate But I keep staring at my food as it's shelf life depletes I can't take this all by myself I need help Apologies, forgive me, please Take this complacency, emotionally displacing me Troubleshoot, what's the use? superfluous stuff flew through us While we're staring at our food as it's shelf life depletes now it's too much to take by ourselves, we need help Staring at your food as it's shelf life depletes Slowly letting it go to waste Please don't wait for your expiry date Bar gaining any hope from bargaining Id do anything just to cope with leaving Arguing, why you are going, But there's no negotiating with a broken machine Staring at your shoes as your shelf life depletes Scared because it's way too soon please recalculate the expiry date Staring at you as your shelf life depletes Scared cause I don't know what to do or what to say, I'm sorry As it steals you so slowly It leaves you so lonely Staring at your food as it's shelf life depletes Scared of being in your own but you're not alone, I'm coming home I'll be by your side as your shelf life depletes

I ain't going nowhere till I'm 80 (at least), That's the frame of mind I'm gonna have, I didn't feel middle-aged when I was 40, Didn't think 60 too old to fall in love. I'm not ready to shuffle off this mortal coil, Nor to slip quietly, gently into that long night, No, I ain't going nowhere till I'm 80 Hell no, will I give up without a fight! With mind over matter, I'll oust that ugly squatter and rise like the phoenix from the ashes of defeat.

Your still, giving me shivers Your not so silent killer Left a lot of filler Several episodes later Ended the slow decline of another timeline Now I can barely get near the scent of incense sticks thick like a toxic fumes Still and lifeless in the room Tiptoe although there's no need to Now that you've gone somewhere new Once Alive and well now in the past rest in peace at last As I pick up the pieces my Heart rate increases Seems to be a 1 to 3 minute gap between panic attacks Hit with shortness of breath when I realised you'd left Now it's a bureaucratic nightmare That kafkaesque behind the desk blank stare Wait here and sign there After you fill out the paperwork This is still going to hurt Once Alive and well now in the past, you're at peace at last As I pick up the pieces my Heart rate increases Seems to be a 1 to 3 hour gap between panic attacks Hit with shortness of breath dealing with what you left An intangible part of the scenery Exit stage left but left a cold body And I think that's what bothers me This room's now empty yet still full of your memory Once Alive and well now in the past you found peace at last As I pick up the pieces my Heart rate increases Seems to be a 1 to 3 day gap between panic attacks Hit with shortness of breath knowing that you've left Mourn your dead dress in black, let that armour crack And I'll pick up the pieces as my heart rate stabilises Seems to be a 1 to 3 month gap between panic attacks Hit with shortness of breath forgetting that you left Hit with shortness of breath remembering that you left Now this shortness of breath is getting less and less

Another statuesque silent battlefield Betwixt the pure and the damned My dreams eroded into sand Dashed by the tumultuous tide I'll never be a whale but wail when I'm blue I never learn how to sail now storm clouds continue to brew So take me down to the sea bed to see if can slumber under pressure But I can't hold my breath forever and I'm coming to the end of my tether Propped up in exoskeleton Programmed by repetition Left in the hands of algorithms No moral code just data and decisions I not made of metal and my mental state made me blue I never learned how to compile sound formulas to make me smile So take me down to a singularity and see if I can slumber under pressure But can't hold this logic forever but I'm struggling to think of something better Once again a Darwinian award thought runs through my brain That's when my Darwinian engine sputters into life again No noose is ever good noose When I'm fumbling with loose knots To be was the only question which i thought I knew how but now I forgot And once again a Darwinian award thought runs through my brain That's when my Darwinian engine sputters into life again So take me down to the gallows and see if I can hang out under pressure But I can't choke on this rope forever and I'm struggling to think of something better yeah I'm coming to the end of my tether I can't be your knight in shining armour My Lance has got an off-kilter bow But don't go when I fear the great unknown Cause my bones are sore when I'm alone I'll never be royal so why am i royally blue I never learn to toil now my hands still look brand new Now let's go around this round table And see who can slumber under pressure Can you hold your smile forever or are you struggling at the end of your tether if so can we let go together? Let's grow old, I'm told things will get better

I guess this ain't a swing door, so best get a handle Cause pulling out unlocked potential is proving quite the struggle Cheek muscles droop, my youth has flown the coop Oops, I think I've just duped myself into buying that excuse Oh my god I've been wasting time again Extrapolating facts from fabrications Exhale poison, inhale poison Either way, it's been nice breathing Feet sowed to the floor, so where is your need for more, your need to soar? Can't get close to the sun trapped in the lies you spun Why did you focus on that kid pig after all that work that spiders done Oh my god I've been wasting time again Extrapolating facts from works of fiction Exhale poison, inhale poison Either way, it's been nice breathing Well done remembering basic survival needs I bet your sick of crawling on your knees Eat, shit, hydrate, shit, work, repeat I think I'm going to break, can I start again next week Oh my god I've been wasting time again Extrapolating facts from my inaction Exhale poison, inhale poison Either way, it's been nice existing Oh my god it's been Chasing skeletons Racing heartbeats rhythm and I'm still breathing Exhale poison Inhale poison Either way, it's been nice existing, breathing, loving, fucking, shiting, I guessing working too